novel-bin Chapter 333 Role Playing
Chapter 333 Role Playing
There is no use regretting now. Now that things have come to this, we can only forge ahead bravely.
After losing his precious concubine, Yun Zhen had lost the courage to live. However, Ji Anni, who was in deep danger, made Yun Zhen find the value of his existence.
Caring for her, protecting her, compensating her—this was the mission Yun Zhen set for himself.
"My queen, if you are really scared, you can ask the emperor for help and ask him to allow you and Prince Ming to leave the palace and temporarily move to another palace. The farther away from the Demon-Suppressing Temple, the safer it will be."
"The Emperor only knows that I am not Zhao Ji, but he does not know that Zhao Ji is the descendant of the fox demon. If I suddenly leave the palace, he will definitely conduct a strict interrogation of me. Moreover, before finding the real Zhao Ji, he will definitely not let Zhao Ji's body leave his sight. He must keep a close eye on Zhao Ji, fearing that I will do something evil."
Although Ji Anni had little contact with Long Mohan, she had already understood Long Mohan's stubborn character. Long Mohan was already very suspicious of Ji Anni's words, and he wanted to tie her to his belt every day and carry her with him at all times. It was impossible for him to let Ji Anni leave the palace.
"Besides, I don't want to leave the palace at all..." Ji Anni murmured in a low voice, and her expression gradually became serious.
"Don't want to leave the palace?" Yun Zhen was very surprised by this sentence. Since entering the palace, Ji Anni has been thinking about going home every day. Why did she suddenly say that she didn't want to leave the palace now?
Ji Anni said clearly: "Yun Zhen... I don't want to sit and wait for death, I want revenge. I know someone is doing evil, someone is harming innocent people... I don't want to watch her do lawless and break the law. I think I should do something to make her punished. I must see her get retribution before I am satisfied, otherwise, otherwise..."
Having said this, she couldn't go on any further. Ji Anni didn't want to mention the cause of Baogui Concubine's death in front of Yun Zhen, as she didn't want to make Yun Zhen even more sad.
"In short, Yun Zhen... I don't want to see that woman become the queen. I don't want to see that woman get away with it after doing so many bad things..." Ji Anni had never hated anyone, but after seeing the skeleton of the poisonous snake, it was really hard for her not to hate Concubine An, and it was hard not to hate this murderer.
Yun Zhen knew that she was talking about Concubine An, but he didn't want Ji Anni to get too involved. "My queen, do you want to go home now, or do you want revenge?"
This question caused a heavy echo in Ji Anni's ears, causing her to suddenly have tinnitus.
Go home... or seek revenge? It's hard to choose. Ji Anni is unwilling to give up on either of these two options.
"I...I want revenge before I go home."
"My queen, this is obviously not your world, but you have involved yourself too deeply. Aren't you afraid that you won't be able to go back?" Yun Zhen used the most tactful way to persuade Ji Anni to give up.
He knew that Ji Anni's resentment towards Concubine An came from Bao'er's death, but if Bao'er had not been determined to die, Concubine An would not have succeeded so easily.
Now Lian Yunzhen himself didn't want to pursue anything anymore, so he didn't want to see Ji Anni dwelling on this matter.
"It's already very deep, Yun Zhen... My connection with this world is already very deep..." On the execution ground, Ji Anni once gave up a chance to go home. That time of giving up seemed to have doomed her to never go back. Because in this world, there were already people and things that she couldn't let go of. She could no longer turn around and leave without hesitation, forgetting everything here.
"Your Highness, the Emperor already knows that you are not Zhao Ji, so you don't have to continue playing the role of Zhao Ji. Wouldn't it be better to free yourself from Zhao Ji and be yourself again?"
"Yun Zhen, do you still remember what you said to me when I first came to this world?" Recalling the scene when I first met Yun Zhen, I felt as if a lifetime ago. I am no longer the same person I was before. "You told me that after I decided to enter the palace, there would no longer be Ji Anni in this world, only Zhao Ji. You made me forget my name and myself..."
"Your Majesty, but the situation is different now." Yun Zhen tried to modify his original words.
"Nothing is different. I have fallen too deeply into the role of Soji and cannot extricate myself. I feel that Soji and I have become one... Yunzhen, from the beginning, you did not intend to send me back to my original world, but just wanted to trick me into entering the palace to help you find the monsters hiding in the palace, right?"
Ji Anni knew that she was just an irrelevant outsider to Yun Zhen. Yun Zhen was not Guanyin Bodhisattva, so there was no need to help a stranger go home. Regardless of whether Yun Zhen valued her now, when they first met, Yun Zhen did bring her into the palace to complete a mission.
"Yunzhen, tell me the truth... Do you think Zhaoji is still alive? Do you think we can still find Zhaoji?"
"Empress, what are you thinking about?" Yun Zhen's voice sounded very anxious. Ji Anni's question made him very uneasy.
"Yun Zhen, I've considered the worst case scenario... that is, Zhao Ji will never come back, and I will never go back. The more I think about it, the more I feel that this possibility is very high. Yun Zhen... even so, do you still want me to get out of the role of Zhao Ji? Do you think I can still get rid of the role of Zhao Ji?" Ji Anni was very confused about her identity.
She was once happy and excited because Lai De accidentally saw Ji Anni in Zhaoji's body, and she was also tormented because the emperor firmly believed that Ji Anni was Zhaoji.
"Yun Zhen, do you want me to be Zhao Ji... or Ji Anni?" When Ji Anni couldn't find the answer, she always liked to ask Yun Zhen for his opinion. In this strange world, only Yun Zhen could give her a family-like feeling.
"My Lady..." Yun Zhen didn't know how to answer, because he didn't know what answer Ji Anni wanted to hear. He was afraid that if he answered wrong, it would make Ji Anni sad.
Unable to wait for Yun Zhen's answer, Ji Anni smiled silently and continued to mutter to herself, "Yun Zhen, actually I still want to be Ji Anni... The reason I told the emperor the truth is that I don't want him to think of me as Zhao Ji anymore. The reason I told the emperor the truth is that I wanted to break away from Zhao Ji and didn't want to force myself to love the person Zhao Ji loves. I want to live as myself, not as Zhao Ji... Yun Zhen, do you know? Even if I can never go back to the original world, and can never be the Ji Anni of the past, but... but I don't want to be the emperor's concubine, I, I... I want to love someone other than the emperor with Ji Anni's heart... The reason I stayed in the palace was for revenge, but the reason I stayed in this world was for... for..."
You.
I don’t want to say the last two words. You know, you must know, but you always pretend to be ignorant and let my feelings for you die on their own.
No, maybe you have already answered, your indifference and neglect is the best negative answer. It is my answer to you, pretending to be ignorant...
"Yunzhen... you must want me to be Zhaoji, right? I know... you must want me to play Zhaoji obediently, right..."
In this way, I won’t bother you anymore, I won’t love you anymore, and you can live a relaxed and burden-free life, living in your memories of Baogui Fei.
Thinking of this, Ji Anni suddenly felt weak all over. She fell softly on the bed, curled up her body, and cried silently.
I know I shouldn't have any expectations, and I know he doesn't have a place for me in his heart, but I still can't let him go...
Zhao Ji was so good. Even if she disappeared, Long Mohan and Prince Ming still loved her. Bao Er was so good. Even if she disappeared, Yun Zhen still missed her. But I, only myself, was right here, in front of all of them, but I was just a trouble, a burden, an eyesore.
Ji Anni buried her face in the quilt, deliberately ignoring Yun Zhen's anxious calls.
I don’t know how long it took, but Yun Zhen’s voice finally disappeared.
After her ears became quiet, Ji Anni's heart also became empty.
She was still holding the small stone used for transmitting sound in her hand, unwilling to let go. It was this small thing that connected her to Yun Zhen, allowing her to hear Yun Zhen's voice anytime and anywhere.
Even so, what? Even so, Yun Zhen still didn't love her.
To wipe myself out of Long Mohan's heart, I only need one sentence - I am not Zhao Ji. But to put myself in Yun Zhen's heart, it is impossible.
Ji Anni cried and laughed, laughed and cried, going crazy in the room alone, laughing at her own recklessness and crying at her own clumsiness.
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Across the yard, in Kang Xiaorong's room, Princess Tianning's tears finally stopped.
The two of them stared at each other, neither of them being able to speak. The Queen Mother's words were still ringing in their ears, and the upcoming wedding date made them accept this fact calmly and no longer resist.
The beautiful and heartless words made Kang Xiaorong sober up. The past is over, but the future has not yet begun. His every move, every word and deed will determine Tianning's happiness for life.
Kang Xiaorong couldn't tell whether Huarong's words were true or false, but from her cold attitude, he really couldn't see a trace of the previous attachment...
Hua Rong doesn't love herself, and she is just being sentimental. She tells herself this over and over again, hypnotizing herself, hoping that this will help her forget those painful memories as soon as possible.
Looking at Princess Tianning, whose tears were still wet, Kang Xiaorong was really moved. He wanted to start over with her and make up for the debt of love he owed her in the past...
"Tianning, I will treat you well." After a long silence, Kang Xiaorong finally said the result of his consideration in his hoarse voice, "I will try to... love you..."