I almost touched the moon

Chapter 354 I Can’t Be a Good Mother

She woke up in the hospital. The cold incandescent light made Wen Song dizzy, but it also helped her regain some consciousness. She was at the Kavli Prize ceremony, but she suddenly fainted when she stood up, and she must have been sent to the hospital.

Cheng Che held her hand all the time, and the broad and warm touch made her believe that she should still be alive.

"Ah Che..." She spoke softly, a little scared and confused, "Am I dying soon? If I really have a terminal illness, please ask the doctor to give me euthanasia. After I die..."

"No nonsense."

Cheng Che stopped her from speaking sternly, picked her up gently, and kissed her forehead. There was some worry in his voice, but more of it was joy that was hard to conceal.

"Songsong, you are pregnant for exactly two months. How do you feel now? Are you still dizzy?"

"Ah?" Wen Song was a little surprised and said in disbelief, "No way? I think I was too busy some time ago and forgot to take medicine for a few days. No, how could it be possible? Even if you are in good health, my health is not that good."

Cheng Che didn't know whether to laugh or cry. He could only show her the medical report and hugged her and said, "Of course it's true. Honey, what do you think? This child..."

Wen Song looked at the medical report, which also contained a 4D color ultrasound, showing a very small embryo. She subconsciously touched her lower abdomen, which was still flat, and she could still feel the muscles on it. She could not imagine that there would actually be a life inside.

She analyzed the next work, sighed and said to Cheng Che: "Ache, Aether is expected to be launched in March next year, and I will definitely go there. And the preliminary design of Aurora voyager will officially begin in April next year. I have never thought about getting pregnant at this time."

After hearing her words, Cheng Che showed a trace of disappointment that was difficult to conceal. He sighed softly and was silent for a moment. Finally, he nodded to Wen Song, forced a smile and said, "I respect your decision. Then I will ask the doctor now, if I want to have surgery, when is the best time. Honey, do you want to have the surgery in Oslo, or go back to Munich or Zurich?"

Wen Song didn't say anything. She clutched the report form and couldn't say a word. Have you decided... She gently stroked her belly. That was her and Cheng Che's child. There was even a 50% chance that it was a daughter, the little girl she had named Astrid a long time ago, who would call them papa and mama.

"I don't know." She hugged Cheng Che, her eyes moistened instantly, and her voice was filled with tears. "I can't make a decision now. I can't give up the next research and projects... Ah Che, I'm sorry, please give me some more time to think about it carefully."

"Okay." Cheng Che patted her back gently, his voice choking. "I'll listen to you, baby. No matter what you decide, I'll support you. Pregnancy is too hard. It doesn't matter if I don't have a child. Having you is enough for me, and we already have Cece."

"Then let's go back to Zurich first." Wen Song looked at him with tears in her eyes, "I miss Cece and my mom."

"Okay." Cheng Che hugged her again and asked softly, "Honey, take a rest. We'll go back after you've rested."

After returning to Zurich, Wen Song told Wen Yiheng about her pregnancy. She looked worried and asked, "So, what is your decision?"

"I don't know." Wen Song sighed, "I don't think I can do research well during pregnancy, but she is not just an embryo, she is also my and Cheng Che's child."

Wen Yiheng smiled and said to her, "Fine, if you are worried about this, to be honest, there is nothing to worry about. When I was pregnant, I went to work at 9 am every day and got off work at 9 pm, with only one day off a week. Besides, I had no one to take care of me at that time, and your grandmother quarreled with me every day."

But soon, she changed the subject and said seriously: "But I must tell you that the pain of pregnancy cannot be alleviated by drugs. First of all, there is morning sickness, and secondly, due to hormone disorders, your skin will become worse, your mood will become depressed and irritable, and your reaction will become slower.

In the later stages of pregnancy, your legs will become severely swollen and you may even develop stretch marks. Your body will become fat, your internal organs will be squeezed, and your back pain will make it impossible for you to stand. Also, you cannot lie flat in the later stages of pregnancy and can only sleep on your back. You will definitely suffer from insomnia at night because you will get up crazily to go to the bathroom. There are many other side effects, and I don’t need to list them all, you must be very clear about them yourself.”

After hearing this, Cheng Che immediately said, "Then let's not have children. It's really too painful. Song Song can't bear it."

Wen Song naturally understood the pain and hurt of pregnancy. She asked Wen Yiheng in confusion, "If that's the case, why did you give birth to me? With your personality, how could you do something that has no benefit to you at all?"

"Before I got pregnant, no one told me how painful it was. Everyone told me it was no big deal, every woman has been through it, and there are people taking care of you, so just enjoy it. Later, I felt the pain of pregnancy and thought about having an abortion."

Wen Yiheng chuckled a little embarrassedly, "But before the operation, I checked the gender and it's a girl. The purpose of my marriage is to have a daughter, because Ilia, to me, you are really my only relative. I have never really felt the love of my parents, so I hope I can have a daughter, and I will love her very much. However, it seems that I still did a very bad job."

"You did a great job." Wen Song smiled and hugged her, "Mama, thanks for allowing me to be your daughter. I always love you."

(Thank you, Mom, for letting me be your daughter. I love you forever.)

Wen Yiheng also hugged her and said to her, "I have already told you the dangers of pregnancy. You can decide for yourself next. I believe that with A Che around, you won't have such a big emotional problem."

After returning home in the evening, Cheng Che tentatively touched Wen Song's belly. He couldn't imagine that under her flat belly, there was their child.

"Wife..." Cheng Che said softly, "Are you feeling dizzy today? Do you feel like vomiting?"

"Not bad." Wen Song yawned, "I'm just very sleepy, and I don't have much appetite. I don't want to eat anything. I just want to sleep."

"Then I'll carry you to sleep. If you're hungry later, tell me and I'll make you a meal."

Cheng Che gently picked her up and carried her upstairs to the bedroom. He put her on the bed and covered her with a blanket. He then brought Cece to Wen Song and gently said, "Mom hasn't been feeling well these days. You should stay with her more, but don't step on her belly."

"Ache." Wen Song hugged him from behind. He had already made up his mind, but he still couldn't bear it. "I'm sorry... I really can't be a good mother. I'm sorry."

Cheng Che immediately turned around and hugged her, comforting her softly, "Honey, don't apologize. What's wrong with that? Your body is your own, so just make your own decision. Oh, it's my fault too. I thought you would be fine after taking the short-acting contraceptive pill, so I forgot to supervise you and didn't take any other measures. It's all my fault. I'm sorry, baby, for making you suffer so much."

After hearing what he said, Wen Song leaned on his chest and sobbed, her tears soaking her clothes, and she sobbed, "I'm sorry... I know you don't want to give up this child, and I don't want to either, but now is not the right time. Che, when the design of Aurora is completed, we will have a baby, a daughter, okay?"

"It's okay." Cheng Che smiled faintly and comforted her, "Mom is right. The damage caused by pregnancy to a woman is irreversible. She gave birth to you because you are her only real relative. But you are different. You have mom, me, and Cece. We are all your relatives. I will definitely stay with you for the rest of your life, don't worry."

Wen Song didn't say anything, remained silent, but his tears kept flowing.

Cheng Che sighed softly and continued to comfort her, "It's really okay, Songsong, don't be so stressed... It's okay, we'll make an appointment for surgery tomorrow. The longer we delay, the greater the damage to you. After the surgery, we'll go to the Maldives, you have to rest well, I'll take good care of you."

"Okay." Wen Song grabbed his hand, placed it on her belly, closed her eyes, and let the tears flow freely. "Isn't it okay? I'm sorry, but I'm fine. I'm not going to cry anymore. Okay?"

(I’m sorry, please come back to your parents in two years, okay?)

Cheng Che also cried. He lowered his head and kissed Wen Song's eyes. He said in a tearful voice, "The baby will definitely come back. She won't blame you."

The next day, Wen Song finished the examination at the hospital. She looked at the embryo on the four-dimensional color ultrasound and couldn't help asking the doctor: "Is it a boy or a girl?"

The doctor shook his head and said, "It's hard to tell right now. If you want to know, you can do a blood test to check your chromosomes. Do you want it?"

"Yes." Wen Song said immediately, "I need it now."