You are not bullying me to look good

Chapter 48 The Male College Student and His Roommate to Talk About

Another day later, Jian Yi was sorting out documents and files in the office, Shen You's main job was still doing scientific research, and he was always in a small dark room, almost everything was taken care of by him alone, and he was extremely busy.

There was a knock on the office door, but Jian Yi said without raising his head, "Come in directly."

The other party didn't open the door, but said through the door: "Xiao Yi."

Jian Yi was manually copying important information. With a shake of his hand, the pen drew a thin crooked line on the paper.

It's Lucifer.

He tore up the waste paper, crumpled it into a ball, and copied it again, awkwardly and happily: "I haven't forgiven you yet." He finally took the initiative.

Lucifer apologized directly: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that."

He is not a person who can apologize, and this "I'm sorry" is also very indifferent, as if perfunctory, Jian Yi silently scribbled on the waste paper, almost tore through the good quality paper, waiting for there to be no blank space For him to vent, he slowly considered and said: "Brother Phil, I will try my best to satisfy you whatever you want to do. What makes me angry is that you didn't put me on an equal footing with you at all. You Doing it outside on purpose with the lights on is hard for me, I have no power to resist in this situation and I'm at your mercy. I'm terrified, I'm insecure, I feel like your toy pet Instead of a lover, coax when you are happy, and do whatever you want when you are unhappy." He sniffed, wondering if the other party would listen to what he was preaching, and asked tentatively, "Brother Phil, are you listening?"

Lucifer answered him: "I am."

Jian Yi couldn't hear his feelings, so he could only bite the bullet and continue. He thought it was necessary for them to talk: "It's just...that feeling, you may not be able to experience it..."

Lucifer interrupted him softly: "I understand, I'm sorry, Xiao Yi."

Jian Yi had a sore nose, touched the paper with blurred eyes, and lowered his voice: "I've always been scared, after all, you are Lucifer, not my 'Brother Phil', I don't know that we are equal Falling in love is still me unilaterally accepting God’s favor. This kind of favor is likely to be fleeting, as short as three to five years, as long as decades—it may be a long time for me, but it’s the same for you. When you get tired of me, you can throw it away at will and make it a little pastime in your endless life, because you are Lucifer, and I am nothing, and I am not qualified to be the person standing by your side."

He took a sip of water, trying to make his voice clear.

"But I still love you without hesitation."

Still, I said it.

His greatest fear, and the sense of security he lacks and craves the most.

He obviously still had a lot to say, but he couldn't speak because of the calm outside the door. He held his breath, hoping to hear a little response instead of his own wishful thinking.

After a few seconds, there was a slight sound of the doorknob twisting, the door opened a crack, and then closed back, Jian Yixin fluctuated with the opening and closing of the door, and then heard Lucifer's voice: "Sorry, I didn't think about it. But... I want to be with you on an equal footing."

This is his third "sorry" today.

"But you didn't give me this feeling." Jian Yi's nose was so sore because of his response, he crumpled the waste paper into a ball, unfolded it and smoothed it out a little bit, trying to fold it into a small thing, "Or you I don’t have this awareness. Brother Phil, I think it’s better for us to separate for a while.”

Lucifer was turning the doorknob, and his tone finally changed when he heard the words: "Are you going to break up with me?"

"It's not a breakup." Jian Yi rubbed her temples on both sides to relieve the pain in her head, "I think we should all calm down, I hope you can figure it out during this time, and we will meet again when you figure it out, okay?"

After a moment of silence, Lucifer did not object: "Okay."

There was no movement outside the door, Jian Yi didn't know if he had left or if it was right to do so, he pushed away the chair like a thief, tiptoed to the door, and put his palm on the door.

Suddenly, he felt the cold wooden door heat up, as if someone had stuck to him at the same position.

Lucifer's voice came through the door: "I'm going back."

Jian Yi let out a "hmm".

"You forgive me, remember to call me back." He paused, "Don't make excuses to forget me."

"It's you who figured it out and came back." Jian Yi bent his eyes, carefully touched the heat on the door, a little shy but did not hesitate, "I will always love you, as always."

"Jian Yi." Lucifer called him.

Jian Yi knocked on the door twice with his fingers.

"Me too." Lucifer spoke only after he knocked on the door, and Jian Yi managed to hear a trace of solemnity from that plain tone.

Jian Yi said "hmm" again, his heart was sour, numb, sweet, bitter, and astringent, with mixed flavors, like fungus soaked in water, quickly swelled up, filling up the space, blocking his love words in response Can't tell.

"Hold me, Xiaoyi." Lucifer said, "Let me see you one more time before I leave."

Jian Yi asked: "Are you going back to hell?"

Lucifer didn't answer yes or no, but said: "Let me take another look at you, I'm afraid I won't remember."

Jian Yi smiled: "You remember what I look like, so what's the use of you." As he said this, he opened the door and met Lucifer's eyes.

He took the initiative to hug each other and touched his back.

Lucifer wrapped him tightly, and seemed to consider whether he would hurt, so he loosened it a little bit.

It was quiet outside, no one was there, and Jian Yi didn't care about it anymore.

Lucifer rubbed his temples, and said in a low voice, "Xiao Yi, let me kiss you."

Jian Yi: "..." He pushed his knee against the opponent's thigh, feeling a little annoyed, "You are, you didn't at all... You push your limits..."

"Let me kiss you." Lucifer recognized his overreaching, and even sold it badly, "I'm leaving, you won't be able to kiss me for a long time."

Jian Yi lowered his eyes and said nothing, his long and dense eyelashes trembled slightly like butterfly wings, his eyes shimmered, his cheeks were full of peach blossoms, he turned his head slightly, and pursed his mouth tightly.

Lucifer touched his face, bowed his head and gave him an extremely lingering and long kiss.

Jian Yi actually tasted the desolation in this kiss. There was a sense of endless fear that there would be no next time, and panic for no reason. When she opened her eyes, she found that he had been looking at her, and she was caught off guard by the deep and bottomless darkness. The lake was as dark as a night of heavy rain in the mountains, so he couldn't read it at all.

In fact, his blue eyes are also very beautiful, Jian Yi thought in a daze.

After kissing Jian Yi, he came to his senses and tightened his clothes: "Why are you..."

Lucifer interrupted him, licking off the water stains from the corners of his lips: "When I'm not around, don't go too far with others."

"Ah."

"Don't see Li Qian again."

"Ah."

"Don't look at others."

"Who can I fall in love with?" Jian Yi put his shoulders on his shoulders, his voice was as soft as usual after making out, but he was extremely stubborn, "My life is too short, I can only love you alone."

"It will be the same as me." Lucifer kissed him brokenly, "I give you my life."

Jian Yi blinked, didn't understand, wanted to ask but heard him call his name: "Jian Yi."

"I love you."

Lucifer finally said.

***

Jian Yi absent-mindedly played with the pen in his hand, the more he thought about it, the more something went wrong.

He only cared about his complaints, but he didn't find anything wrong with Lucifer.

In fact, it is not difficult to find that he is abnormal after returning from Lucifer.

However, he was completely blinded by his emotions, and only slowly realized after the other party left.

Every word he said was abnormal. It was obvious that they were only separated temporarily to calm down, and as long as they figured it out, they could continue to be together.

life and death...

Can't get in touch with Lucifer again, neither does Jins.

Jian Yi was startled, and hurried to find Li Yuanshang.

"Did something... happen to him?" Jian Yi asked anxiously, afraid of hearing what he didn't want to hear.

In his heart, Lucifer is powerful and invincible, but he forgot that he is not the only one, he is a fallen angel, he was defeated from heaven to hell, he has a restrainer...

He thought of the wound on Lucifer's waist, an understatement of an old enemy, the sacred and inviolable Jehovah in mythology, and the archangel with holy wings who stabbed Lucifer...

Li Yuanshang told him about Lucifer's three-year ban from entering the country, and said with a smile, "I also took this opportunity to procrastinate and refuse to leave the country. It's a good trick."

Not only that...

"There must be something else..." Jian Yi frowned, "Can you tell me?"

Li Yuanshang sighed: "Every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite. We can't control other people's affairs."

Jian Yi's heart sank to the bottom, and he asked with a sour voice: "Just, can't you reveal anything?"

Li Yuanshang said: "It's not that I can't say it, but I don't know it at all." He explained, "It's like we also have our own family affairs, and we can't explain it to outsiders. If other countries know state secrets, it will only bring war and destruction."

Jian Yi got up in a daze: "I... I know..."

Li Yuanshang patted him on the shoulder: "Everything depends on fate, and the result is already determined. You have nothing to do if you are in a hurry. It's better to practice with peace of mind."

He thought that Wu Ze would know something from his travels around the world, but when he went to ask, he only said that the West was not very peaceful, and he had no way of knowing the details.

Jian Yi bit her lip tightly, her heart didn't know where she went, and she didn't find herself until she tasted the smell of blood.

***

The lake of fire has not changed for thousands of years. No matter how many souls it swallows, it is still burning peacefully.

Chessia flew by the lake with her huge black wings, her long blond hair fluttering slightly due to the thermal airflow, she looked at Lucifer who was rushing over, with a slight apology in her beautiful eyes: "There is no way."

"It's not your fault." Lucifer flew over and said calmly, "What should come will always come."

Cecia sighed: "I'm always the inducement, if it wasn't for me..."

"Here we come." Someone interrupted her self-blame.

All the rulers of hell gathered here, watching the peaceful lake of fire suddenly burst into flames, boiling up arrogantly and recklessly.

The author has something to say: I didn't sleep in the exam the day before yesterday, and I made up for it yesterday... ==